Back to the drawing board

It has been a few weeks since I've posted.

The first week to two weeks after my epiphany of being "done" were great. I felt like a weight had lifted.

I had my onsite interview for the job that I REALLY wanted, which I totally rocked. I got over all of my doctor stupidness, no more TTC shit, etc. I started working out, boot camp style.

Everything was looking brighter.

Last Monday I royally fucked up both of my knees. Not sure what happened, but I have been in a lot of pain. Having trouble walking, the whole sha-bang.

Meanwhile, with the acquisition in full force, my days are numbered at my current job.

Yesterday I found out I didn't get the job. Absolutely beyond disappointing.

So, I have a doctor appointment on Friday to x-ray my knees and assess the situation. I had to quit my boot camp, which was majorly depressing because it was feeling great to be active again, and I was already losing weight and getting more toned.

It is funny how quickly things can spiral downhill. I was doing so well.

Oh well, time to start back from square one.

Big Week

Now that I am over my dramatic emo moment I have a lot to focus on this week.

I interviewed last week for a job that I REALLY would love to get. I should hear back by the end of this week, one way or the other.



C and his dad are going to build a fence this weekend, between our neighbors house and ours. It will be SO nice to have something like that done. Most of the backyard projects we've been talking about for 3 years, and it seems that things are finally happening!

It will look kind of like this:




Then, finally, I finally have a doctor's appointment today.

Last week I went in to get blood drawn for, what they call a recurrent loss panel. It was about 9 vials they test for a variety of Thyroid, autoimmune, and blood clotting disorders.

They will also give me an ultrasound, my fingers are crossed that there is no scar tissue or anything requiring another procedure.

Also, the big question. Where is my period?

Interviewing while pregnant and the mixed feelings that go along

I'm in such an odd situation.

You know how when you are TTC forever and everyone around you says...relax...or

"just have something stressful happen in your life and you'll get pregnant"

Like finding out that you're losing your job can actually get you knocked up! HA!

hmmm....wait a second.....

Seriously though, I'm kidding. It was just a random coincidence.

But to the real issue. What the hell do I do??

I found out it could happen a couple months earlier now. By July.

I have a few options and have no clue what to do.

1) I've already started interviewing, had a couple with no calls back. Honestly though, how long can I do this? I know I won't start showing for many many weeks BUT lets say I get offered a job when I'm at like 11weeks, still not showing but it feels so dishonest. At least at this point I can always say, sorry I took the job before I knew! And it would be believable!

2)Hope that I get an offer for retention and get to stay on at my current company for a few months after close to be the wrap-up crew.

3)Hope the new company wants me? Highly unlikely but I guess possible...

4)Just wait it out and get on unemployment. Take my maternity leave early and look for a job after. <----------- this option is scary!

I suppose I should just start doing the math and see what my best option might be. Yikes.

eeek! Stressful! But..... if this is what got me knocked up....I'll take it :)

Why I might be out of a job very soon

I'll do two posts today, because my 3rd "Unlucky Me", which I was just about to post, didn't make sense without these two.

Acquisition:

My company was planning for an IPO. We were going public, we had started gathering all of our documents to change the name and everything. This has been in the works for quite a while. It became serious a few months ago.

My prediction at the end of last year: When we go public, within 7 days we will be acquired.

Monday, March 7th: The day of our anticipated IPO, I come in to work to discover an email in my inbox from the execs, we've been acquired by a competitor. I much larger and competitor that does exactly what we do.

The first day I was all in high spirits, hahahaha I was right, I'm so smart. Ok that lasted a couple hours before I realized. hmmmmm....shit....I'm going to lose my job.

The deal is set to close sometime in the 3rd quarter. So sometime between June and September I will be out.

Granted, there is a chance the deal won't go through, or the other company wants to keep me, but both of those odds get slimmer each day. I'm down to a 10% chance or less.

I've already sent my resume to about 10 open postings. I've updated my LinkedIn account and am frantically trying to get my ducks in a row.

Raise...or lack there of:

My next moment of pause was this: WTF. WTF. WTF. So much for that raise/promotion I've been begging for over the past few YEARS!

I try to be positive. But I feel so undervalued. I am a smart person. I have a great personality. I have loyalty. All the things it takes to make a freakin awesome employee.

Its just that...well...... my company SUCKS.

They overvalue so many. And undervalue people that actually do the real work, while they sit back counting their stock options.

My solace: someday I WILL be higher than some of these people. And they will have to face me, and it will not be pretty.