32 Weeks

How far along: 32 weeks - one day early but I'll be busy tomorrow so posting today instead
Total weight gain: I'm up to 205! I've NEVER seen anything over 200 on my scale!!!!! OMG
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: We finally put up our tree and decorated it! Also had my sprinkle last Saturday, lots of fun!
Miss anything: still booze!!!!!!!!
Movement: Yep, all the time now! Getting strong kicks, especially when there is something on my belly.
Food cravings: coffee!
Symptoms: I think I hit a wall in the last week. I am having issues bending over, putting socks on, picking up stuff, etc. I'm SUPER tired, like not happy if I don't get 10 hours of sleep cranky tired. Which is pretty much impossible. I think because of the cold I'm not swelling much, so thank you cold! But I had to ask Cameron to pull off my rain boot the other day, so I think there is some swelling starting. I am having cramps on and off that I'm pretty sure are mild and inconsistant contractions.
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: nope, besides the random contraction/cramping. I'm very aware the time is growing near though. I'm planning on getting things done the next two weeks while I have some time off work for the holidays. I could be totally wrong but I'm really thinking she'll come very late January early Feb. So in my head it feels like I only have a month left!
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy, getting nervous and stressed part of the time.
Looking forward to: Christmas Eve tomorrow and Christmas the day after! We are on super tight budget this year for Christmas because of my impending job loss, but Greyson has a bunch of fun gifts and I'm sure he will have fun trying to eat the boxes and rip the paper!

30 Weeks!

How far along: 30 weeks
Total weight gain: haven't checked for a while
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: I found out on Monday that my contract is being extended until my due date, so I can relax a tiny bit that I'll be able to work until I can't anymore. And that means I won't have to be on unemployment!!
Miss anything: booze!!!!
Movement: Yep, all the time now! Getting strong kicks, especially when there is something on my belly.
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is continuing to look better. Pelvis pain actually starting to taper off. Not perfect, but I'm not wincing in pain everytime I move. Today I've been super crampy. Not ready to go yet, but subtle reminders that I'm getting very close to the end here. If I have her as early as Greyson, I'm looking at 7 weeks left!!
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: nope, just crampies occasionally, probably growing baby/belly.
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off as of this morning, more because I was paranoid that it would get stuck
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy, getting nervous and stressed part of the time.
Looking forward to: My Christmas Tree Hunting Party/baby sprinkle is coming up this weekend! I was not looking forward to it earlier but now I'm excited to get a tree and see everyone

 

 

And a bump pic!

Losing Your Job While Pregnant

I thought I would write a little about how I'm feeling about facing impending joblessness while pregnant.

Last February I decided to leave my full time regular position at a well known company to work a one year contract job at a different company. There were a few reasons for this:

1. It was a step up financially
2. The job I left was in a big transition and I didn't feel secure
3. It gave me the opportunity to add to my resume and learn a new area of my line of work

Cameron agreed with my reasons and we decided it was ok to take the risk.

My new boss seemed to like me a lot, we got along great, he had zero complaints. I was very gung-ho and learned my job fast and well. I even volunteered for additional projects and work.

Several months into this new job I found out I was pregnant again (we were trying, and assumed it would take years to conceive again...wrong) 

Then my boss decided to leave the company. Within a couple of weeks of finding out I was pregnant. This was a huge blow and instantly I knew I was out on a limb, and could only hope that I made a great impression on whomever his replacement ended up being.

The new replacement arrived about a month after his departure. I did everything I could to make a great impression. I hid my pregnancy as long as possible. I volunteered for projects, really tried to show my value.

At around 18 weeks I really couldn't hide it well anymore and had decided to tell my new manager at our next one on one meeting. She had been here about a month or so. Right before I was going to tell her she told me that she decided to discontinue my contract role in November, because she wanted to find someone who was more senior to fill the role. I felt like I got punched in the face. I doubt I hid my complete and utter disappointment very well.

I was crushed.

I followed up by letting her know I was pregnant as an FYI, since it obviously didn't matter since I wouldn't even be here the extent of the pregnancy.

I had started to apply for new jobs as soon as my old boss left, which was August. The larger my belly got the more I knew I would be out of luck on finding a new job. I had at least 12 interviews, not a one panned out. Normally I have been lucky with finding jobs and was getting stressed out at not finding anything.

It is now 3 months after my boss screwed me over and I just started training my replacement. I'm very bitter and trying hard not to let it show to her or my other coworkers. After all, I did take this risk voluntarily knowing it might not have worked out. We DID start trying to for a baby fulling knowing I COULD have gotten pregnant.

For some reason I'm still pissed. It all just seems like such BS. I know I did an excellent job and should have been kept on. I hate my new boss (even before she told me about my contract ending). I don't even like the company that much. But I'm pissed in principal.

Stealing my livelihood. Throwing me to the wolves when I'm pregnant and cannot find something else. Screwing up our savings plan, our move plans, all of our plans. Especially when adding another mouth to feed.

I'm just plain pissed.

And probably slightly more hormonal than normal.

I have gone to her manager and basically begged to be kept on a few extra weeks (to avoid unemployment and jump straight into disability pay). I should find out next week if they are willing to do that.

So that is that. I'm nervous about the next few months and how we are going to get by. I've done the math and think we will be fine, cutting it close for a couple of months. I am also really concerned how this will impact my relationship with the new baby. Am I going to be spending too much time away from her interviewing and applying for jobs? How is this going to impact my breastfeeding? Is the stress going to be seriously high?

Ugh, a lot to think about on top of the probably more common job loss feelings: rejection, embarrassment, low self worth, impending doom, etc.

Hopefully I will  be able to keep up the blog and don't spiral into a state of depression...

I feel that I should end this on a positive note by listing reasons why this might be a good thing:

1. This will give me the opportunity to get into a better company/position
2. I might land a job that is transferable up to PNW, making our move eaiser
3. I will have extra time to spend with the kiddos
4. I might get more projects done
5. I will have time to keep up with the house stuff

29 Weeks

How far along: 29 weeks
Total weight gain: 23 lbs, haven't checked since last time
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: Thanksgiving was last week, had a great time, tried making yeast bread for the first time, turned out awesome!
Miss anything: booze!
Movement: Yep, all the time now!
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is continuing to look better. Pelvis pain continues, getting worse. I'm having this super fun pain on the right side of my inner thigh, groin area I guess, this is getting worse too. Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: not labor, but I have gotten braxton hicks and some cramping that feels like early stage contractions a few times. Nothing consistent though, not enough to be concerning.
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: On - but I should probably take it off soon before I can't anymore
Happy or moody most of the time: My work situation is the same. I've requested they keep me on for an additional few weeks to bring me to my maternity leave time. I should have an update next week. Fingers crossed! Otherwise my last day here will be in a few weeks.
Looking forward to: My Christmas Tree Hunting Party/baby sprinkle is coming up in a couple weeks. This is our third year doing it I think, and I have very few things for new baby, so that will be super helpful for us.

27 Weeks!

How far along: 27 weeks
Total weight gain: 23 lbs, oh my that sounds like a lot
Maternity clothes: yes
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia
Best moment of this week: Rough weekend actually, not a whole lot of good to report. We had Cameron's uncles memorial over the weekend, very sad.
Miss anything: Nothing really this week
Movement: Yep, all the time now!
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is continuing to look better. Pelvis pain continues, but not too bad. I'm having this super fun pain on the right side of my inner thigh, groin area I guess? Kind of feels like my leg is being slowly pulled away from the rest of my body. Not awesome actually.
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: On
Happy or moody most of the time: Getting a little nervous about my work situation, my contract is set to end on 12/23 and then I'm facing unemployment until after I can start looking for a job when the baby comes. I'm nervous about how that is going to impact us financially and not feeling great about adding this burden.
Looking forward to: Thanksgiving is 1 week from today! It is going to be small, not the normal fancy beach gathering, but I'm sure it will still be lovely!

These pictures are funny, I'm feeling QUITE a bit larger than these portray!

26 Weeks

How far along: 26 weeks
Total weight gain: a lot
Maternity clothes: yep, some non-maternity shirts are fine though
Stretch marks: nothing new
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia
Best moment of this week: Wonderful weekend in Portland!
Miss anything: Drinking. I missed drinking this week.
Movement: Yep, all the time now!
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is looking a tiny bit better. Oh and my pelvis pain started in the past few days, which is sad. My pregnancy with Greyson it was almost unbearable pain for several weeks. I really hope it isn't as bad this time.
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: On
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy, getting a little stressed out now
Looking forward to: Thanksgiving is in 2 weeks, I have all kinds of fun new stuff to try making :)

In other news I finally broke down and got a "mom" haircut. Honestly my hair was falling out in a bad way, obviously the chemistry of my hair changed during this pregnancy. It was dry, breaking, tangly, just kind of awful. It is SO much better now, I do not regret it!

Also I thought since this is my last post in the 2nd Trimester, that I would add my bump photos!

Portland - the land of trees and beer

This last weekend was Cameron's birthday, I tired to surprise him with a trip to Portland. I was able to keep it a surprise for a few months, but needed to tell him a few weeks before his birthday for planning purposes. It was awesome anyway!

Cameron and I have been planning on moving up to the pacific northwest for a while now. We are waiting on a few things, property value increase here, job stuff, etc. But we are totally ready to get out of this desert hot hell hole of California.

So I thought it would be fun to take a quick trip up north so Cameron could see what its like in the fall (I've lived outside of Portland so I know it is wonderful!)

It was also Greyson's first flight! The way there was pretty uneventful, he was a little whinny but not the nightmarish scene I was worried about. He even fell asleep for about 20 minutes!

We rented a house through Air BnB in Northeast Portland. The house was a super cute craftsman style, 4 bedroom, spacious downstairs. We went on the trip with another couple and their 15 month old, so we had plenty of room to spread out.

I tired to find interesting places to eat and visit while we were there, some of the places I remember loving when I lived there, and some new. The first night we went out to the Rhinelander restaurant and had some seriously amazing chicken schnitzel and lentil soup, just as great as I remember! And apparently Greyson loves lentil soup too.

The next morning we went to a breakfast joint that a few people had recommended to me, the Waffle Window. I mean shit, how can you go wrong with that!?  Nope couldn't go wrong! It was freaking fantastic, I had a savory waffle, which was covered in ham and Gruyere cheese, very sweet, so good, you didn't need much more than that. Very much like street truck food only in a permanent location.

The rest of the day was spent driving around looking at different neighborhoods around town to see which areas we could picture living in. There were several that were seriously so gorgeous. I haven't been to Oregon in the fall in such a long time I'd completely forgotten they get real seasons there. The leaves were beautiful, I really couldn't get enough of them. Didn't take many photos of our neighborhood adventures, but we did hit up one of my all time favorite restaurants while we were out: Cornelius Pass Roadhouse one of the McMenamins. The first time I went here I was only 9 years old. It was even better than the last time!

Of course we checked out a few parks, Greyson's first time in a swing, loved it!

Saturday I spent most of the day with some friends in the area, we went out to another awesome brewery called HUB, Hopworks Urban Brewery. Very kid friendly which was great because we had several with us! We also went and walked around another McMenamins - Kennedy School, which I hadn't been to before. Totally loved it, of course!

Saturday night was Cameron's "big" birthday dinner. I invited all of his family from the area and some of my friends that live in or around Portland.  The place was called the Oregon Public House, cool not for profit brewery with awesome food.

Sunday was our last day in Portland, and we still managed to make the most of it. We started out with breakfast at another recommended location, Pine State Biscuits.  And O M G, I couldn't have imagined that my Waffle Window could be outdone, but yes.... it was....

I'm not sure I've ever had a better breakfast in my life. Obviously, given the name, primarily the food is biscuit related. I had biscuits and gravy, others had breakfast sandwiches with biscuits, or even a shrimp and grits plate. Seriously just freaking amazing (and I swear it isn't because I'm pregnant! Everyone loved theirs!)

We then drove around some more neighborhoods, that, shocker, even out did the ones from earlier in the trip. Overwhelmingly awesome! The TREES!!!! The RAIN!! I JUST CANT.

Then yet ANOTHER fucking amazing restaurant, how can this be!?! This one we just drove by and said, hey that looks good, let's stop. It was called Tabor Tavern. Totally kid friendly funky modern little tavern. Great food, great mood, great company. It was the icing on the cake of the trip. Just felt so right to be there, I've only been home a day and a half and miss it dearly.

 The flight home was pretty awful. It would have been better to take a morning flight. Greyson pretty much threw a shit fit from take off to landing. And we got home well past bedtime, around 8 or 8:30.

I'm going to overlook that as poor planning on my part, and am looking forward to our next trip (which will also include new baby girl) to Seattle in the summer to check out our other prospective neighborhoods!

23 Weeks!

How far along: 23 weeks
Total weight gain: 12lbs
Maternity clothes: yep, some non-maternity shirts are fine though
Stretch marks: nothing new
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia
Best moment of this week: Going to the pumpkin patch with Greyson!
Miss anything: not this week
Movement: Feeling her very regularly, now almost daily on the outside too
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon)
Symptoms: Lots of hair falling out, skin is looking a tiny bit better, heartburn, I've also been way more emotional this pregnancy, like tearing up at the slightest thing, kind of annoying actually.
Have you started to show yet: yes I'm taking this question out for next week
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: On
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy!
Looking forward to: Starting on some house projects this weekend, it always feels good to get things done around the house, this week has also been pretty productive for things like that!


I just had an appointment a couple of days ago. I'm still on every 4 week appointments. My next appointment will be at 27 weeks and  I will do the one hour glucose testing at that time. I'm nervous about it because I feel more yucky this pregnancy (like fat) and I failed the 1 hour test last time and had to take the 3 hour test TWICE!

 I've been dealing with a lot more stress from non-pregnancy factors this time around. My job situation is extremely precarious. I just interviewed at a large company yesterday. I was super nervous because I look pretty pregnant now. I think it went well but who knows.

Also, Cameron's uncle who was battling Multiple Myloma cancer for the past two years passed away early morning yesterday. He was such a great guy and I feel bad for Cameron and everyone on that side of the family.

22 Weeks!

How far along: 22 weeks! over half way there!!
Total weight gain: I stopped stepping on the scale ... last I checked about 8lbs up which actually isn't too far from where I was at this point last time, so feeling fine about it.
Maternity clothes: yep, some non-maternity shirts are fine though
Stretch marks: nothing new
Sleep: less dreams lately, still some insomnia
Best moment of this week: Going apple picking for the first time!
Miss anything: not this week!
Movement: Feeling her very regularly, only once on the outside so far though
Food cravings: greek yogurt, coffee flavored with granola
Symptoms: Skin looks like crap, overall feeling fine though, can't complain!
Have you started to show yet: yes, no doubt, people just assume now
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off because it has been really hot and my fingers are fat
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy!
Looking forward to: Just regular OB appointments going forward, no more ultrasounds. Still more fun stuff coming up, excited to go to the pumpkin patch with Greyson for the first time!

Lorelei's Announcement

I've had a difficult few weeks (maybe even a couple of months). Last February I took a risk and quit my full time job to work a contract gig, in an attempt to learn more of my role, specially 401(k) plan management (boring I know!).

Well I was maybe a little too confident, and wasn't expecting to get pregnant again so fast, and it has kind of bitten me in the ass.

I've had months of interviews and job hunting with nothing to show for it. Luckily my contract has been extended through December, but that doesn't even bring me up to my maternity leave start date.

Anyway, I am trying to remain calm and have faith that things happen for a reason and everything will work out in the end... possibly just not the way I imagined it.  (VERY difficult for me to swallow being a total control freak)

The point is, because of this situation, we weren't able to announce my pregnancy, mainly because I didn't want someone from work knowing. Finally it is beyond the point where I can hide it, so we decided to go for it.

And here is the photo:

Very happy to be out of the pregnancy closet!

19 Weeks

How far along: 19 weeks! almost half way there!!
Total weight gain: I stopped stepping on the scale ...
Maternity clothes: yes, pants and everything for the last week or so.
Stretch marks: nothing new, but I swear the old ones are more visible to me, and my linea negra is back.
Sleep: vivid dreams a little middle of the night insomnia
Best moment of this week: Anatomy scan, everything is looking good!
Miss anything: not this week!
Movement: Started to feel her quite a bit yesterday, but only when I'm sitting down
Food cravings: salad!
Symptoms: Pimples, some kind of face rash, getting less tired, still on m/s meds tried to go off and was feeling sick.
Have you started to show yet: Yep, impossible to hide, though no one has assumed yet, I could obviously just be fat!
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off because it has been really hot and my fingers are fat
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy!
Looking forward to: Just regular OB appointments going forward, no more ultrasounds. But not baby related I'm so happy that yesterday started off Fall and there are SO many fun things coming up I'm looking forward to. The most immediate is this weekend with my Mom, we are going to be making more of our frozen meals for when baby comes! This time I'm starting earlier so I have a couple weekends to do this. And am going to aim for double what I did last time! (Especially while I'm still not huge and uncomfortable!)

17 Weeks

ooops I missed a few weeks!!

How far along: 17 weeks! Man time is flying!
Total weight gain: 8lbs uh oh!
Maternity clothes: Sort of, not really necessary yet, my pants fly is open all the time though, so it is probably time.
Stretch marks: nothing new
Sleep: vivid dreams
Best moment of this week: Went to Cabo San Lucas for a friends birthday/babymoon
Miss anything: I would love to not be so tired all the time
Movement: I feel at least some movement daily at this point!
Food cravings: Greek yogurt with granola! yum!
Symptoms: I think I'm finally into the time of pregnancy where there are less symptoms. I am not really even feeling sick in the evenings anymore. I'm tired but it could be the medication I'm on (I'm still on m/s meds because a happy side effect is lowered anxiety) I only seem to get headaches now when I forget to wear my glasses at work. And I think going to Cabo and being in ultra humidity helped my pimples. They are still there but I don't look nearly as shitty.
Have you started to show yet: Yes, there is a full on bump now. It still looks fatty in the morning but is pretty hard by the end of the day.
Gender: Girl!
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off because it has been really hot and my fingers are fat
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy!
Looking forward to: Our Anatomy scan is in a just over a week!. (I originally wrote "a few weeks" but damn it is sneaking up on me!!)

14 Weeks - Helllllloooooo second Tri!

How far along: 14 weeks YAY Here I am 2nd Trimester!! Woop!
Total weight gain: 3lbs (though I had a dream that I gained 10!!)
Maternity clothes: Yes, a couple of tops
Stretch marks: Just the remaining ones from Mr. Grey
Sleep: vivid dreams + middle of the night insomnia, if I get woken up I have a hard time going back to sleep again.
Best moment of this week: NT scan, finally! It felt like it took forever to get here, it was awesome seeing my little she baby on the screen bouncing away :)
Miss anything: Would like more energy!
Movement: I think I may have felt a few things, but it is hard, I found out I have an anterior placenta so it makes sense it might be delayed.
Food cravings: Oatmeal and pickles (not together!)
Symptoms: I'm feeling sick still in the evenings, nothing crazy, just light nausea. I have also been getting almost daily headaches. With my pregnancy with Greyson (and a couple of the others) it was nice because I didn't have a headache the entire time (normally I get them frequently)
Have you started to show yet: The bloat has settled down this week but for sure there is something going on there.
Gender: Girl!
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off because it has been really hot and my fingers are fat
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy! I've had VERY few grumpy days this pregnancy which I'm happy about, and I'm sure everyone around me is thankful for
Looking forward to: babymoon in Cabo San Lucas coming up! (really it is for a friend's birthday but since it is good timing for a babymoon I'm calling it that!)

NT Scan

So we finally got to have another ultrasound yesterday! It had been almost 4 weeks since our last one.

SHE was in there kicking away, jumping off my cervix, and doing some awesome punches.

Everything measured great, she is about a week ahead now, measuring at 14w1d - 14w4d with a heart rate of 151bpm.

I was very happy to learn that I don't have any sign of Placenta Previa (yet!) but was slightly bummed to find out I do have an anterior placenta, which isn't a big deal but means I probably won't be able to feel this little one as much. During my pregnancy with Greyson it was the absolute best thing about the entire pregnancy so I'm hoping it won't be that dramatic of a difference.

Overall I'm really glad everything is still going so well, and I'm looking forward to the rest of the time getting ready for her arrival!

13 Weeks

How far along: 13 weeks (and 1 day to be specific) (2 days until Second Tri!!)
Total weight gain: 3lbs
Maternity clothes: Yes, some shirts that are flowy, my bump started at a 9 weeks this time, as opposed to last time, started at 18+ weeks!
Stretch marks: Just the remaining ones from Mr. Grey
Sleep: Nothing crazy going on, besides vivid dreams
Best moment of this week: I've heard the HB a few times at home this week :)
Miss anything: Nothing really, maybe it would be nice to not feel so tired all the time!
Movement: I thought I felt something a couple days ago, but never felt it again, so I'm going to say no.
Food cravings: It feels like this whole pregnancy all of my cravings are things that used to be in my lunch box in elementary school: Capri Sun, juice boxes, pudding cups, applesauce, cracker cheese snacks, twinkies... so weird....
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Have you started to show yet: The bloat has settled down this week but for sure there is something going on there.
Gender: Girl!
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off because I keep forgetting to put it on
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy! I've had VERY few grumpy days this pregnancy which I'm happy about, and I'm sure everyone around me is thankful for
Looking forward to: My NT scan in 2 1/2 days!

What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet.

Seriously though.

Why are girl names so damn difficult...?

I'm fairly certain we won't have a name chosen until very near the end of this pregnancy.

For anyone that knows me, they would know that this is a miserable waiting game! I hate her not having a name. I think it makes it feel more real. It feels pretty damn real now that we know she is a SHE. However, I would really love to have a name to call her, and to tell people about.

Speaking of which, only a small group of friends and family even know about this little one now. I am still actively job searching and until I know if I have something secure I don't want to share, for fear of news spreading. My current company doesn't know yet. I'm only 12 weeks so it isn't a huge deal. BUT, I'm already totally showing so it is going to become an elephant in the room very soon. I already have run out of flowy shirts to wear.

Because this girl and Greyson will have to share a nursery I've decided to continue the ocean theme and add a little Coral accent color and mermaids to her side of the room. The room is blue/grey color with lots of whale decor. (I should really post about his nursery sometime).

To give you an idea of the naming progress, I, of course, have a spreadsheet:

The super long list with all the "vetos" were my suggestions. The short one on the right are Cameron's suggestions. The one of the far left are is "maybe" list. Nothing strikes me as just right though. I am beginning to wonder if sometimes you just have to pick the best one you both agree on, maybe it just takes time getting used to?

12 Weeks

How far along: 12 weeks (Only a week and a 1/2 to Second Trimester!!)
Total weight gain: 2lbs
Maternity clothes: Yes, some shirts that are flowy, my bump started at a 9 weeks this time, as opposed to last time, started at 18+ weeks!
Stretch marks: Just the remaining ones from Mr. Grey
Sleep:Still having some weird middle of the night insomnia - Like last night I woke up at 1:30am because it was too warm in Grey's room, so I turned on the A/C for 15 minutes, then it took me an hour to fall back asleep :(
Best moment of this week: Getting the panaorama results back!
Miss anything: Nothing really, maybe it would be nice to not feel so tired all the time!
Movement: Nothing, guessing in the next few weeks though!
Food cravings: Nothing specific this week
Anything making you queasy or sick: certain smells, but getting better all the time!
Have you started to show yet: I'm not sure if it is bloat of bump, maybe a little bit of both. During the last pregnancy my belly didn't protrude up at the top (by the rib cage) until closer to 3/4 through the pregnancy, this time it happened seriously early.
Gender: my instinct was wrong! It's a GIRL!!
Labor signs: no
Belly button in or out: In for the time being, it never popped out last time, only became flat.
Wedding rings on or off: On! I just put it back on this week :) I'm sure I'll be taking it off again soon though...
Happy or moody most of the time: VERY happy!
Looking forward to: My NT scan in 11 days!

Panorama Results

I was very surprised to get a call from my doctor yesterday at around noon. They said they received my panorama blood tests results and that this baby tested very low odds at having the assortment of chromosomal issues that the test checks for. Including Triploidy! I was so relieved to find out we are getting lucky again with a normal healthy little thing growing in there!




One of the extra bonus features of this blood test is it tells you the sex of the baby WELL before you can see it on an ultrasound. I was EXTREMELY shocked to find out.......

11 Weeks

(one day late!)

How far along: 11 weeks 1 day
Total weight gain: 2lbs so total so far
Sleep: If I wake up in the night for any reason I find it really hard to get back to sleep :(
Best moment of this week: How far along: 10 weeks (a little late, actually 10w5d oops)
Total weight gain: 2lbs
Sleep: Lots of!
Best moment of this week: I've been looking for a new job and have had several interviews this week. (Though I'm getting very nervous about what happens if I get an offer and how to handle telling them I'm pregnant...)
Miss anything: Not this week!
Food cravings: GOAT CHEESE!!!!!!!!!!!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Smelly things :(
Happy or moody most of the time: Pretty damn happy most of the time! Small bouts of grumpy along the way but nothing super crazy like last time!
Looking forward to: REALLY eager to find out the genetic test results! In my gut I feel like everything is ok but I would feel so much more at ease with the evidence to go along with that. It's been 1 week today since I had the blood draw, and they said it would take 5-10 business days, so I really hope by next Friday at the latest we will know. Fingers crossed!!!

10 weeks

How far along: 10 weeks (a little late, actually 10w5d oops)
Total weight gain: 2lbs
Sleep: Lots of!
Best moment of this week: Well this was last week, on Friday, we had another ultrasound and I was very happy to see a squirmy little baby in there! Measuring ahead 4 days, so 10w5d with a HR of 153, totally normal!
Miss anything: There was at least one time over the weekend I really could have used a drink!
Food cravings: Watermelon, ice water, same old!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Not as much, I am getting better, this is also about the same time it started to ease up with my last pregnancy
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy to have, once again, made it past our other miscarriage milestones!
Looking forward to: I scheduled my NT scan which is in 3 weeks! Also I took the Panorama test on Friday so I will hopefully hear back within the next 2 weeks (they said 5-10 business days!)

(Baby #6 at 10w1d)

9 Weeks/9 Months Update

Current Pregnancy Update:

How far along: 9 weeks
Total weight gain: I'm not sure, I haven't weighed myself because I feel like a fat ass
Sleep: I have been sleeping SO much I actually feel guilty about it. I fell asleep the other night at 8pm, and got 10 hours of sleep. In my defense I was fighting a cold so I probably needed it. But About an hour after I wake up I'm ready for bed again.
Best moment of this week: I found my fetal doppler. I was not able to find the heartbeat, but I know it is still early. I'll keep trying!
Miss anything: I've been missing feeling just normal for a consistent period of time. Honestly my morning sickness is not as bad as I had it with Greyson (I'm thinking the meds help) BUT I still feel weird or like crap fairly consistently. Daydreaming of the 2nd tri when I start to feel more normal.
Food cravings: Watermelon, ice water, Lingonberry juice (I was at Ikea last weekend!)
Anything making you queasy or sick: Honestly not as much, I just feel yucky for no reason mostly. Overeating is a huge trigger for feeling like crap though. Need to watch that.
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy! Baby is a Fetus as of today, week 9 is always scary for me. I'm really..
Looking forward to: my third u/s next week, 07/24, I should measure 10w1d (and if baby is growing how it has been I'll probably measure closer to 10w5d) I really hope he/she is still growing in there!

9 Month update on Greyson

I cannot believe my baby cakes is already 9 months old! This last month has been SO CRAZY! A million things happened all at once! I don't know where to start!

Teeth - 2 of them! Both within the last month. The first one caused him to be a whinny complainy mess for a week or so. Second one we barely noticed came in (both on the bottom)

Movement - Wow. He had been rolling over for quite a while but he suddenly became extremely fluid in it, like rolling over multiple times to get to somewhere he wanted to go.

Then crawling! That happened so fast, I feel like one day he was finally able to rest on all fours. Then the next day he was rocking back and forth, the next he was moving small movements either forward or backward, then the next (I'm calling it 07/07) he started full on crawling!

Standing!!! FOUR days after I walked in to get him when he woke up from a nap and BAM:

 So now, less than a week later he is consistently pulling himself up on furniture, my legs, anything he can. So much fun. I can't wait to see where we are in a month!

8 weeks

I completely missed my 8 week post! I have no idea how that happened. It might be a good way to show how much less obsessed I am with this pregnancy. After actually having a child it really does feel different to be going through this again. Not every waking moment is spent dwelling on the outcome of this pregnancy. It almost sounds bad to say that. I guess it is what it is.

8 Weeks

How far along: 8 weeks
Total weight gain: 1 lb
Sleep: Sleep is sweet sweet relief from nausea
Miss anything: not having weird food aversions
Food cravings: Watermelon
Anything making you queasy or sick: Raw meat, too much food, not enough food.
Happy or moody most of the time: Pretty happy!

(skipped a few questions because that was a week ago and doesn't make sense to add!)

Ultrasound #2

On Monday I went to have my follow up ultrasound. Everything was great!

The baby had a strong HB of 160 and was measuring a few days ahead at 8w1d (I was 7w4d on Monday). Here is an updated picture of the little dude. I'll be 8 weeks tomorrow!

7 Weeks

How far along: 7 weeks
Total weight gain: 1 lb
Sleep: Sleep is sweet sweet relief from nausea
Best moment of this week: Spending Sunday being lazy watching movies
Miss anything: feeling NOT sick
Food cravings: Watermelon, ice water, Popsicles, anything cold.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Everything, all day
Happy or moody most of the time: Still worried but hopeful
Looking forward to: my second u/s next week, 07/06, I should measure 7w5d

Other notes:

I've been feeling a little guilty because I'm feeling like crap constantly. I don't feel "present" all the time when I'm with baby Grey. That makes me sad. I don't want to miss out on my time with him because of symptoms. Last pregnancy it started to ease at 11 weeks, if that is the case this time I only have 4ish weeks to go!

6 Weeks

How far along: 6 weeks
Total weight gain: 0
Sleep: More morning insomnia
Best moment of this week: Having the first ultrasound!
Miss anything: feeling normal
Food cravings: Watermelon, ice water, Popsicles, anything cold.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Everything, started feeling sick all day within the past few days.
Happy or moody most of the time: Still worried and happy and now feeling sicky.
Looking forward to: finding medication that helps me not feel sick!