Wednesday, June 24, 2015

6 Weeks

How far along: 6 weeks
Total weight gain: 0
Sleep: More morning insomnia
Best moment of this week: Having the first ultrasound!
Miss anything: feeling normal
Food cravings: Watermelon, ice water, Popsicles, anything cold.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Everything, started feeling sick all day within the past few days.
Happy or moody most of the time: Still worried and happy and now feeling sicky.
Looking forward to: finding medication that helps me not feel sick!

Tuesday, June 23, 2015


I went in yesterday to get my first ultrasound for this pregnancy. As I mentioned previously, I didn't expect to actually see anything. I even told Cameron that he shouldn't come because we might get lucky and see a yolk sac, but no heartbeat.


I had to hold my breath because it was so tiny, but there it was!

Measuring 5w5d, HR of 103, hopefully this is a new sibling for Greyson snuggling in!

Also, between my last post and now morning sickness has set in. Last pregnancy it came suddenly, overnight. This time it has been a slow progression for about a week. Today is the first day I'm feeling it continuously, and threw up this morning and yesterday morning. Ewww.

Friday, June 19, 2015

5 weeks

So, I very much regret not blogging about my pregnancy with Greyson. I think that would have been really fun to look back on. I would like to try to make up for it by doing it this time.

It's interesting having a background of mainly miscarriages how even one successful pregnancy can't really offer much in the way of happiness/joy/hope.

I am trying to be super positive. I had a good feeling when I first found out about this one. As the days progress I start to feel more and more worried that something isn't right. I hate that feeling. I really want to be wrong.

My pregnancy with Grey started out very similar to my others. I found out when I was about 4 weeks. I had minimal symptoms.

Then something different happened.

At 5 weeks to the day I started feeling seriously nauseous. I had had moments of feeling queezy with other pregnancies but NOTHING like this. This was actually really fairly debilitating all day sickness. It didn't let up until at least 12 weeks maybe more like 13. I had a rough time of it, lost 5-10lbs, was on medication, it was pretty messed up. But every time I went to the doctor for my weekly check up she would ask me how I was feeling, I would tell her still sick all the time, and she would say "aww I'm sorry, but I like to hear that because, to me, it is a good sign of a healthy pregnancy!"

Disclaimer: I KNOW that not every pregnancy is accompanied by morning sickness. But for some reason that just made me feel better to hear.

Yesterday I hit 5 weeks with this pregnancy. As much as I really hated being so sick last time, I really REALLY wanted to wake up feeling super sick.

So masochistic.

But I didn't. I mean I've been feeling gaggy on and off for a good week or so. I've been pretty damn tired, and bloated for sure. But no sickness and no sore boobs. I can't help to compare this to pregnancies that have ended in miscarriage before. They were more similar to this.

I'm trying to keep myself busy and not dwell on this. Honestly, it does help to have Grey, he is a constant reminder that I did succeed, I have my baby, though I would love to have more children, if he is all I can have I will still be grateful.

In the meantime, I'm 5w1d, I'm pregnant today, and hopefully Monday I will have good news at the ultrasound.

5 Weeks

How far along: 5 weeks
Total weight gain: 0
Maternity clothes: n/a though the bloat is kinda yuck
Stretch marks: Just the remaining ones from Mr. Grey
Sleep:What I call morning insomnia - this has happened in previous pregnancies before. I am tired so I go to sleep early, then wake up at the crack of dawn and cannot go back to sleep. soooo tired....
Best moment of this week: Taking Father's Day photos for my gift for Sunday!
Miss anything: Wine, it's only been a few days, but I'm already missing another summer of no drinking... in a row! WTF?!
Movement: n/a
Food cravings: So far I haven't had my least favorite pregnancy symptom come up, the one where nothing in the whole wide world of food sounds good. I could do without that one (although it may be the reason I didn't gain much weight last pregnancy!)
Anything making you queasy or sick: driving, raw meat
Have you started to show yet: bloat doesn't count
Gender: n/a (my gut instinct says boy!)
Labor signs: um no, little early for that.
Belly button in or out: In for the time being, it never popped out last time, only became flat.
Wedding rings on or off: Off, I haven't worn it since half way through the last pregnancy
Happy or moody most of the time: I'm worried and happy at the same time!
Looking forward to: Celebrating Cam's first father's day on Sunday!

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Beta #4

Beta #4 was a success! My veins will thank me that I'm over the 2500 mark they were looking for :) It came in at a nice 2873. Pretty stoked about it.

U/S scheduled for next Monday! eeek! I'm guessing it will be too early to see more than a sac, but whatever, I'll take that and go from there!

Monday, June 15, 2015

Beta #3

Just heard back and Beta #3 was 567.3, which is a doubling time of 33 hours.

I'll take it!

Doc still wants me to come in until the HCG levels are over 2,500. Hopefully that will only mean another draw today and Wednesday.

My veins are not happy with me.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Beta #2

And something is moving in the right direction!

Beta # 2 was 207, which is a doubling time of 29 hours (we were looking for no more than 48)

Also my Progesterone level went up a pretty good amount at over 15!

And of course...the pee sticks...

I have another Beta tomorrow but won't get it back until Monday. So fingers crossed it keeps going up. Going to be another long weekend wait.

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

First Beta Results

Much better than last time, though by this point I had already given up hope on the pregnancy.

1st Beta is 67.8
Progesterone (P4) of 10.57

I'm a little concerned about how low the P4 is. I've requested that at my next draw tomorrow they re-draw for that also.

I'm feeling better about this one already though, my lines are getting darker, at this point with the chemical pregnancy they had just about faded out at this point.

Honestly, I'm still in shock that I was able to get pregnant 2 months in a row. I feel like people will all equate it to the old wives tale about becoming more fertile after having a baby. Who knows, maybe that is true. I certainly never pictured falling into this category.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Wow... Just... Wow.

On Friday morning I decided that I had a million Wondfo cheapie pregnancy tests under my bathroom sink and I just NEEDED to pee on things.

And then everyday since then...

I don't even understand how this happened.

I mean obviously I know mechanically how it happened. But how could I have gotten pregnant TWO months in a row. I'm just baffled.

I really don't even know what else to say about it. I'm trying very hard not to get my hopes up. I went in for my first beta at lunch today.

Fingers crossed this one is sticky!