How far along: 32 weeks - one day early but I'll be busy tomorrow so posting today instead
Total weight gain: I'm up to 205! I've NEVER seen anything over 200 on my scale!!!!! OMG
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: We finally put up our tree and decorated it! Also had my sprinkle last Saturday, lots of fun!
Miss anything: still booze!!!!!!!!
Movement: Yep, all the time now! Getting strong kicks, especially when there is something on my belly.
Food cravings: coffee!
Symptoms: I think I hit a wall in the last week. I am having issues bending over, putting socks on, picking up stuff, etc. I'm SUPER tired, like not happy if I don't get 10 hours of sleep cranky tired. Which is pretty much impossible. I think because of the cold I'm not swelling much, so thank you cold! But I had to ask Cameron to pull off my rain boot the other day, so I think there is some swelling starting. I am having cramps on and off that I'm pretty sure are mild and inconsistant contractions.
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: nope, besides the random contraction/cramping. I'm very aware the time is growing near though. I'm planning on getting things done the next two weeks while I have some time off work for the holidays. I could be totally wrong but I'm really thinking she'll come very late January early Feb. So in my head it feels like I only have a month left!
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy, getting nervous and stressed part of the time.
Looking forward to: Christmas Eve tomorrow and Christmas the day after! We are on super tight budget this year for Christmas because of my impending job loss, but Greyson has a bunch of fun gifts and I'm sure he will have fun trying to eat the boxes and rip the paper!
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Thursday, December 10, 2015
30 Weeks!
How far along: 30 weeks
Total weight gain: haven't checked for a while
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: I found out on Monday that my contract is being extended until my due date, so I can relax a tiny bit that I'll be able to work until I can't anymore. And that means I won't have to be on unemployment!!
Miss anything: booze!!!!
Movement: Yep, all the time now! Getting strong kicks, especially when there is something on my belly.
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is continuing to look better. Pelvis pain actually starting to taper off. Not perfect, but I'm not wincing in pain everytime I move. Today I've been super crampy. Not ready to go yet, but subtle reminders that I'm getting very close to the end here. If I have her as early as Greyson, I'm looking at 7 weeks left!!
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: nope, just crampies occasionally, probably growing baby/belly.
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off as of this morning, more because I was paranoid that it would get stuck
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy, getting nervous and stressed part of the time.
Looking forward to: My Christmas Tree Hunting Party/baby sprinkle is coming up this weekend! I was not looking forward to it earlier but now I'm excited to get a tree and see everyone
Total weight gain: haven't checked for a while
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: I found out on Monday that my contract is being extended until my due date, so I can relax a tiny bit that I'll be able to work until I can't anymore. And that means I won't have to be on unemployment!!
Miss anything: booze!!!!
Movement: Yep, all the time now! Getting strong kicks, especially when there is something on my belly.
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is continuing to look better. Pelvis pain actually starting to taper off. Not perfect, but I'm not wincing in pain everytime I move. Today I've been super crampy. Not ready to go yet, but subtle reminders that I'm getting very close to the end here. If I have her as early as Greyson, I'm looking at 7 weeks left!!
Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: nope, just crampies occasionally, probably growing baby/belly.
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: Off as of this morning, more because I was paranoid that it would get stuck
Happy or moody most of the time: Happy, getting nervous and stressed part of the time.
Looking forward to: My Christmas Tree Hunting Party/baby sprinkle is coming up this weekend! I was not looking forward to it earlier but now I'm excited to get a tree and see everyone
And a bump pic! |
Thursday, December 3, 2015
Losing Your Job While Pregnant
I thought I would write a little about how I'm feeling about facing impending joblessness while pregnant.
Last February I decided to leave my full time regular position at a well known company to work a one year contract job at a different company. There were a few reasons for this:
1. It was a step up financially
2. The job I left was in a big transition and I didn't feel secure
3. It gave me the opportunity to add to my resume and learn a new area of my line of work
Cameron agreed with my reasons and we decided it was ok to take the risk.
My new boss seemed to like me a lot, we got along great, he had zero complaints. I was very gung-ho and learned my job fast and well. I even volunteered for additional projects and work.
Several months into this new job I found out I was pregnant again (we were trying, and assumed it would take years to conceive again...wrong)
Then my boss decided to leave the company. Within a couple of weeks of finding out I was pregnant. This was a huge blow and instantly I knew I was out on a limb, and could only hope that I made a great impression on whomever his replacement ended up being.
The new replacement arrived about a month after his departure. I did everything I could to make a great impression. I hid my pregnancy as long as possible. I volunteered for projects, really tried to show my value.
At around 18 weeks I really couldn't hide it well anymore and had decided to tell my new manager at our next one on one meeting. She had been here about a month or so. Right before I was going to tell her she told me that she decided to discontinue my contract role in November, because she wanted to find someone who was more senior to fill the role. I felt like I got punched in the face. I doubt I hid my complete and utter disappointment very well.
I was crushed.
I followed up by letting her know I was pregnant as an FYI, since it obviously didn't matter since I wouldn't even be here the extent of the pregnancy.
I had started to apply for new jobs as soon as my old boss left, which was August. The larger my belly got the more I knew I would be out of luck on finding a new job. I had at least 12 interviews, not a one panned out. Normally I have been lucky with finding jobs and was getting stressed out at not finding anything.
It is now 3 months after my boss screwed me over and I just started training my replacement. I'm very bitter and trying hard not to let it show to her or my other coworkers. After all, I did take this risk voluntarily knowing it might not have worked out. We DID start trying to for a baby fulling knowing I COULD have gotten pregnant.
For some reason I'm still pissed. It all just seems like such BS. I know I did an excellent job and should have been kept on. I hate my new boss (even before she told me about my contract ending). I don't even like the company that much. But I'm pissed in principal.
Stealing my livelihood. Throwing me to the wolves when I'm pregnant and cannot find something else. Screwing up our savings plan, our move plans, all of our plans. Especially when adding another mouth to feed.
I'm just plain pissed.
And probably slightly more hormonal than normal.
I have gone to her manager and basically begged to be kept on a few extra weeks (to avoid unemployment and jump straight into disability pay). I should find out next week if they are willing to do that.
So that is that. I'm nervous about the next few months and how we are going to get by. I've done the math and think we will be fine, cutting it close for a couple of months. I am also really concerned how this will impact my relationship with the new baby. Am I going to be spending too much time away from her interviewing and applying for jobs? How is this going to impact my breastfeeding? Is the stress going to be seriously high?
Ugh, a lot to think about on top of the probably more common job loss feelings: rejection, embarrassment, low self worth, impending doom, etc.
Hopefully I will be able to keep up the blog and don't spiral into a state of depression...
I feel that I should end this on a positive note by listing reasons why this might be a good thing:
1. This will give me the opportunity to get into a better company/position
2. I might land a job that is transferable up to PNW, making our move eaiser
3. I will have extra time to spend with the kiddos
4. I might get more projects done
5. I will have time to keep up with the house stuff
Last February I decided to leave my full time regular position at a well known company to work a one year contract job at a different company. There were a few reasons for this:
1. It was a step up financially
2. The job I left was in a big transition and I didn't feel secure
3. It gave me the opportunity to add to my resume and learn a new area of my line of work
Cameron agreed with my reasons and we decided it was ok to take the risk.
My new boss seemed to like me a lot, we got along great, he had zero complaints. I was very gung-ho and learned my job fast and well. I even volunteered for additional projects and work.
Several months into this new job I found out I was pregnant again (we were trying, and assumed it would take years to conceive again...wrong)
Then my boss decided to leave the company. Within a couple of weeks of finding out I was pregnant. This was a huge blow and instantly I knew I was out on a limb, and could only hope that I made a great impression on whomever his replacement ended up being.
The new replacement arrived about a month after his departure. I did everything I could to make a great impression. I hid my pregnancy as long as possible. I volunteered for projects, really tried to show my value.
At around 18 weeks I really couldn't hide it well anymore and had decided to tell my new manager at our next one on one meeting. She had been here about a month or so. Right before I was going to tell her she told me that she decided to discontinue my contract role in November, because she wanted to find someone who was more senior to fill the role. I felt like I got punched in the face. I doubt I hid my complete and utter disappointment very well.
I was crushed.
I followed up by letting her know I was pregnant as an FYI, since it obviously didn't matter since I wouldn't even be here the extent of the pregnancy.
I had started to apply for new jobs as soon as my old boss left, which was August. The larger my belly got the more I knew I would be out of luck on finding a new job. I had at least 12 interviews, not a one panned out. Normally I have been lucky with finding jobs and was getting stressed out at not finding anything.
It is now 3 months after my boss screwed me over and I just started training my replacement. I'm very bitter and trying hard not to let it show to her or my other coworkers. After all, I did take this risk voluntarily knowing it might not have worked out. We DID start trying to for a baby fulling knowing I COULD have gotten pregnant.
For some reason I'm still pissed. It all just seems like such BS. I know I did an excellent job and should have been kept on. I hate my new boss (even before she told me about my contract ending). I don't even like the company that much. But I'm pissed in principal.
Stealing my livelihood. Throwing me to the wolves when I'm pregnant and cannot find something else. Screwing up our savings plan, our move plans, all of our plans. Especially when adding another mouth to feed.
I'm just plain pissed.
And probably slightly more hormonal than normal.
I have gone to her manager and basically begged to be kept on a few extra weeks (to avoid unemployment and jump straight into disability pay). I should find out next week if they are willing to do that.
So that is that. I'm nervous about the next few months and how we are going to get by. I've done the math and think we will be fine, cutting it close for a couple of months. I am also really concerned how this will impact my relationship with the new baby. Am I going to be spending too much time away from her interviewing and applying for jobs? How is this going to impact my breastfeeding? Is the stress going to be seriously high?
Ugh, a lot to think about on top of the probably more common job loss feelings: rejection, embarrassment, low self worth, impending doom, etc.
Hopefully I will be able to keep up the blog and don't spiral into a state of depression...
I feel that I should end this on a positive note by listing reasons why this might be a good thing:
1. This will give me the opportunity to get into a better company/position
2. I might land a job that is transferable up to PNW, making our move eaiser
3. I will have extra time to spend with the kiddos
4. I might get more projects done
5. I will have time to keep up with the house stuff
29 Weeks
How far along: 29 weeks
Total weight gain: 23 lbs, haven't checked since last time
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: Thanksgiving was last week, had a great time, tried making yeast bread for the first time, turned out awesome!
Miss anything: booze!
Movement: Yep, all the time now!
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is continuing to look better. Pelvis pain continues, getting worse. I'm having this super fun pain on the right side of my inner thigh, groin area I guess, this is getting worse too. Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: not labor, but I have gotten braxton hicks and some cramping that feels like early stage contractions a few times. Nothing consistent though, not enough to be concerning.
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: On - but I should probably take it off soon before I can't anymore
Happy or moody most of the time: My work situation is the same. I've requested they keep me on for an additional few weeks to bring me to my maternity leave time. I should have an update next week. Fingers crossed! Otherwise my last day here will be in a few weeks.
Looking forward to: My Christmas Tree Hunting Party/baby sprinkle is coming up in a couple weeks. This is our third year doing it I think, and I have very few things for new baby, so that will be super helpful for us.
Total weight gain: 23 lbs, haven't checked since last time
Stretch marks: nothing new, but the old ones are becoming much more pronounced
Sleep: vivid dreams, some insomnia, nightmares
Best moment of this week: Thanksgiving was last week, had a great time, tried making yeast bread for the first time, turned out awesome!
Miss anything: booze!
Movement: Yep, all the time now!
Food cravings: coffee and oatmeal (brown sugar and apple cinnamon) - same!
Symptoms: Skin is continuing to look better. Pelvis pain continues, getting worse. I'm having this super fun pain on the right side of my inner thigh, groin area I guess, this is getting worse too. Gender: Baby girl, Lorelei
Labor signs: not labor, but I have gotten braxton hicks and some cramping that feels like early stage contractions a few times. Nothing consistent though, not enough to be concerning.
Belly button in or out: In
Wedding rings on or off: On - but I should probably take it off soon before I can't anymore
Happy or moody most of the time: My work situation is the same. I've requested they keep me on for an additional few weeks to bring me to my maternity leave time. I should have an update next week. Fingers crossed! Otherwise my last day here will be in a few weeks.
Looking forward to: My Christmas Tree Hunting Party/baby sprinkle is coming up in a couple weeks. This is our third year doing it I think, and I have very few things for new baby, so that will be super helpful for us.
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