I really thought I could scare my body into working by threatening it with stealing blood and poking and prodding. No such luck.
Today I go in to get the SA kit and the request for my CD3 blood work, which will be tomorrow.
I guess this is good and bad.
Good because it is really great to feel like we're doing something pro-active about this situation.
Bad, well.... because it sucks that we got to this point at all.
Also, as my friend A said to me yesterday:
"I am not sure what we are hoping for..."
So true, it would be bad to have a big problem. But also frustrating to not have anything wrong. It sounds so weird. But I know if there is nothing wrong then we'll just be told to suck it up and keep trying.
Maybe just something small and easy to fix? Low sperm count, low hormones, something easy.
Who hopes they have a problem? It sounds almost sadistic. I'm probably cursing myself just writing this. They'll probably now say I have no eggs and C has no sperm.
Sigh... there is no winning.
I can totally relate. You almost wish you had a problem so that you do something to fix it, rather than just keep on keepin on, you know? It's definitely a frustrating process!
ReplyDeletei totally relate too. we have our appointment next week with my ob/gyn to discuss our difficulty getting pregnant. i'm also now sure if it'd be better to have a "diagnosis" or told to just keep trying because "nothing's wrong." best of luck to the 2 of you!
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