February 10th 2014

A little joke about not being sure when I should start my next period turned into quite a whirlwind of emotion.

I found out I was pregnant for the 4th time on a Monday. I was joking with Cameron about how I was extra emotional for some reason and how unlike me that was.... not surprisingly he asked me when the last time I had my period was. Wow. Totally couldn't remember. Ooops.

Fast forward a few hours, I got home from work, took a pregnancy test and BAM. Another set of two pink lines.

SHIT.

That was my first reaction. Then tears. Then SHIT! Then more tears.

I called Cameron, I told him what the test results were, he was hesitant in asking me how I was feeling. I'm not sure why he had to even ask being that I was obviously a sobbing mess on the other line.

With my history, getting pregnant again was sad and stressful. I wasn't happy, I was shocked and pissed off at myself for not being more careful.

It was just a countdown until the end of it.

Cameron understood, I think he was feeling very similarly.

It makes me sad now writing about this, I still wish I could have had the very joyous experience and deliberated painstakingly how to tell him we were going to be a happy little family.

HA.

And, well, you already know the ending to this story, so this was just to document my awesome motherly reaction to this news.

Let the games begin!